I found out yesterday my pregnancy will have to be terminated at almost 4 months.
They found that my beautiful little baby didn't form properly below the shoulders.
It has organs missing, some organs are attached to the placenta and some of its insides are on the outside.
Its spine is broken into 3 pieces and its leg is fused. Its so broken are deformed there is no way it would make it.
I have no idea what happened to my angel. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, I eat healthily, I'm not overweight. I had no symptoms during the early months. Its just a freak thing.
So my baby is currently alive, is over 6.3cm's, has a heartbeat of 154 beats per minute and will die in my tummy when I am induced into labour.
Apparently it won't even make it out.
I just want to die with my baby, at least that way I can hold its hand into heaven.