I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my 2nd daughter 3 weeks ago, and I am still waiting to find out why. But I think its important to remember to try not to blame yourself, Cause Its not something that you, or anyone else, was in control of. And I know that its hard not to blame yourself - I am going through that to, thinking about all the things I did and wondering if that had any effect on the baby, if that's why Rori died.
I have also been through a stage in my life where I was cutting myself and other self-harming behaviours, so I understand what it feels like to want to do that. But you need to remember all the people that love you, cause they'd all miss you so much!
As the other girls said, just come on here to chat whenever you want, we are all here to support each other, its true, the girls (sorry, ladies!) are so good. So come on here and spill your heart out whenever you want.
Maybe you could tell us about your precious angel... would that help? For me I find talking about Rori helps me feel a bit better, when I remember how beautiful and perfect she looked.
I hope you are feeling better soon.
Ava May 18/11/05 & Rori Elaine (stillborn) 6/8/07