Hi Girls, I am so sorry to hear about all of your stories. I too had a miscarriage at 7 wks in October this year, trying for my first. It was very difficult for me to cope with, I had just got over the excitement of finding out I was finally pregnant and then had to deal with it being taken away from me. When i told poeple about it, it was like nobody knows how hard it was or the grief involved. I remember sitting and starring at walls and crying until I had no tears left but so many people brush off miscarriage and dont understand the pain. My doctor suspected I had PCOS and was about to send me to a specialist when i got pregnant. So there were many things to be positive about knowing that it was possible for us to conceive.
I took a few weeks to feel ok about trying again, but i followed doctors instructions and waited until after my first full cycle. I have just found out that I am pregnant again. On my first full cycle after the miscarriage. I am excited yet scared. Going through that loss was so terrible that I would be crushed if it happened again.
I do feel very different this time to last time. I was on edge the whole time before but this time I feel a lot more calm and comfortable. Last time i was jumping out of my skin to tell people, although i didnt tell many, after going through that loss I now know the most important people to tell.
I have also been watching my friends pregnany progressing as we would have been at the same stage had my first pregnancy not miscarried. I see her as a constant reminder of my loss, yet I am totally thrilled that she has a a little miracle of her own.
I am wishing for a smooth pregnancy this time and that I can stop thinking about "last time".
Good luck to all the ladies trying again, I know we will get there!